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Papineni]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[siripapi@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:owner><itunes:email><![CDATA[siripapi@substack.com]]></itunes:email><itunes:name><![CDATA[Sirisha Papineni]]></itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author><![CDATA[Sirisha Papineni]]></itunes:author><googleplay:owner><![CDATA[siripapi@substack.com]]></googleplay:owner><googleplay:email><![CDATA[siripapi@substack.com]]></googleplay:email><googleplay:author><![CDATA[Sirisha Papineni]]></googleplay:author><itunes:block><![CDATA[Yes]]></itunes:block><item><title><![CDATA[Dear Polly, Dear Friend, Dear LLM,]]></title><description><![CDATA[The perceptive effort to give good advice]]></description><link>https://siripapi.substack.com/p/dear-polly-dear-friend-dear-llm</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://siripapi.substack.com/p/dear-polly-dear-friend-dear-llm</guid><pubDate>Sun, 02 Feb 2025 18:13:12 GMT</pubDate><enclosure 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y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">Perceptive Oscillations (Asim Paul)</figcaption></figure></div><p>Sometimes when I&#8217;m talking to someone, I get this eerie feeling of  <em>&#8220;How did you to know to ask me that?&#8221; </em>A perceptive person often has this effect in conversation, and his or her perception&#8212;when laid out&#8212; rarely requires persuasion. It stands on its own firm ground insisting that it was in plain sight the whole time. </p><p>I started thinking about this when reading <em>Ask Polly</em>, a popular advice columnist on Substack who responds to letters on personal conflicts such as:  </p><ul><li><p><em>I&#8217;m Overwhelmed with Grief</em></p></li><li><p><em>Should I Follow My Much-Older Boyfriend to a State Where I Don't Want to Live?</em></p></li><li><p><em>Get My Mom Out of My Head</em></p></li><li><p><em>I'm Too Lazy and Mediocre to Deserve the Life I Want</em></p></li><li><p><em>How the Fuck Do I Avoid Major Regret?</em></p></li><li><p><em>I'm 35 and I Feel Like a Shell of a Person</em></p></li><li><p><em>I Don't Want to Have Sex with My Husband</em></p></li><li><p><em>Why Do My Friendships Always Fade Away?</em></p></li></ul><p>I sometimes draft my own advice to see how it compares to Polly&#8217;s responses. Many times, I would 100% ditch my own advice and align with hers. Other times, I would reach the same conclusion she did but could not articulate how I got there &#8212;which is a crucial skill for an advice columnist. It seemed as if Polly was just more perceptive than me.</p><div><hr></div><h3>The Experiment </h3><p>To help me understand how to get better at this, I selected one letter from Polly&#8217;s archive and compared three responses: </p><ul><li><p>Advice from human #1 (response from a friend I recruited for this exercise&#8212;this is someone who I would personally go to for advice)</p></li><li><p>Advice from human# 2 (Polly&#8217;s response from her archive)</p></li><li><p>Advice from an LLM (chatGPT 4o&#8212; in the voice of an advice columnist)</p></li></ul><p>Below is the letter followed by the three responses. If you really want to play along, I suggest taking a few minutes to draft your own response before reading the others.</p><h4>Author&#8217;s Letter: &#8216;Should I Leave My 12-Year-Old Daughter Behind to Pursue My Dreams?'</h4><p>Dear Polly,</p><p>I finish my Masters in July, and can stay in my current city to continue on to PhD. It&#8217;s not guaranteed but there&#8217;s a very good chance I&#8217;ll get a scholarship to do so. I want to do PhD, for pleasure, for pain, so that I don&#8217;t end up back working in a caf&#233; full time, which given the job market in the arts here, is what will happen &#8212; large swathes of our media people are being put out to pasture. </p><p>So I want to go overseas, to the U.S. Sure, she&#8217;s a hot mess right now, but what better time to get in the media and entertainment and journalism weeds? (I also want to do my PhD on cinematic time and cosmetic surgery, so hey USC u up?). My name is in the hat for the green card lottery, there are handsome scholarships and fully funded PhDs and J-1 visas and people on the ground in the U.S. with couches I can sleep on for a month or two. There is a broader scope of work that I can compete for at the other end of my degree.</p><p>My daughter turns thirteen at the end of this year. Her father, my ex-husband, is adamant she go nowhere without him &#8212; I can go, but she can visit for holidays at most. He is expecting twins with his partner, so wants to stay put. Things are civil between us, but they might not be for much longer &#8212; he has previously applied for overseas jobs, only to tell me after the fact, or announced his plans to move to a ludicrously expensive enclave down south, which is over twice what I pay now. I have started the ball rolling on family mediation to discuss how we would negotiate my potential departure. I don&#8217;t want to be an absent parent, but I don&#8217;t want to wither on the vine here &#8212; I feel like I&#8217;ve been given this second chance at making something of myself, and I&#8217;m fucking good at what I am doing.</p><p>I&#8217;m also coming up two years single&#8212;apart from a brief interlude with the most beautiful man I&#8217;ve ever met, more on him in a second &#8212; and the last sex I had was THE WORST SEX I HAVE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE. Obviously not all sex is going to be that bad, but after several rounds on the slot machine &#8212; I mean, dating apps, with nothing to show for it &#8212; I have given up. I&#8217;m actually really fucking lonely here.</p><p>Full disclosure: Regarding the Beautiful Man--we&#8217;re still in contact. I wouldn&#8217;t go to L.A. <em>for</em> him, there may be nothing there. I&#8217;d apply to a bunch of different grad schools. There&#8217;s NYU. Iowa. Chicago. There&#8217;s an MFA in Laramie (a romantic notion, though I probably shouldn&#8217;t move to Wyoming if I&#8217;m bored here, LOL). But if there was his hand to hold on the other side of the ocean? I would sacrifice an eye to Poseidon himself to get me there. I&#8217;ve been around the block. I know a good man when I find one. I&#8217;m in my 40s and unfucked and terrified. My bones miss him.  Losing him was worse than losing my mother and my marriage.</p><p>My daughter also told me she&#8217;d be mad at me if I didn&#8217;t go, if I didn&#8217;t pursue my dream like a hound. I&#8217;m in her phone as &#8220;Dr. Mum.&#8221; She&#8217;s smart as a whip, but she is still twelve. I spent an hour reading an online debate about this kind of thing, and I ended up feeling like a piece of shit for wanting more.</p><p>I don&#8217;t think I&#8217;m doing a Doris Lessing, but&#8230; am I? Am I an asshole? My mother died a bitter harridan because she couldn&#8217;t cut from the cloth she was given, but that&#8217;s pretty harsh of me to say given my privilege, and now I&#8217;m chasing a different cloth, too.</p><p>Yours,<br>Am I The Asshole (AITA)</p><div><hr></div><h3>Advice from Human #1  (A Perceptive Friend)</h3><p>Dear AITA,</p><p>Are you doing a Doris Lessing? Are you an Asshole? First off, do <em>you</em> think Doris Lessing was an asshole for leaving her two elder children behind with the dad? If so, then yeah, you&#8217;re an asshole if you do this. Are you actually doing a Doris Lessing, though? I&#8217;m less sure of that.</p><p>You say you want to go to the US to pursue your degree because the market is better. I don&#8217;t know where you live, but what little I know about the market for PhD&#8217;s in the social sciences is that it&#8217;s not exactly a cakewalk getting a job out here (in America) either &#8211; certainly not in academia. Depending on what exactly your degree is in, it might be easier in the private sector here, but media is shrinking all over the world (and an MFA is also not exactly a moneymaker). So what is the goal of the degree program you are pursuing? Is it to make money? Move onward in your career (wrt contacts, expertise, notoriety, etc.)? Satisfy your intellectual curiosity? From what you&#8217;ve written, I&#8217;m not convinced you&#8217;re clear on that.</p><p>I think you know you&#8217;re thinking with your pussy.</p><p>So, in summation, not Doris Lessing.</p><p>Now that I&#8217;ve gone and burst that balloon, are you still with me? If so, this looks an awful lot like a midlife crisis from where I&#8217;m standing. I know that&#8217;s not the term our generation uses, but strip it down to the bones and tell me I&#8217;m wrong.</p><p>I don&#8217;t know whether staying home will turn you into a bitter harridan. I don&#8217;t think it will because, after all, you have the freedom that comes with divorce (which I suspect your mother didn&#8217;t, at least not at the same point in her life as you are now), custody agreement notwithstanding. I do know that if you go chase that dick across an ocean and it doesn&#8217;t pan out, your PhD or MFA program will be cold comfort.</p><p>Meanwhile, it sounds like you have a great relationship with your daughter. She might be honest in her advice, or she might be telling you what she thinks you want to hear. Either way, a PhD program is at least a couple of years. She&#8217;s 12: the serious parenting is about to begin, and you&#8217;re going to miss it if you&#8217;re in another country. Do you really want to be hundreds or thousands of miles away when she has her first real boy/girl/them-friend? When she&#8217;s sorting out her birth control options? That first time she needs a ride home from a party no questions asked, don&#8217;t you want to get the call?</p><p>I understand the separation might happen anyway, that your ex is a dick who might very well move the family. Still, right now you&#8217;re the one with the power to decide if you stay in her life during these critical years, and it&#8217;s not at all clear to me that waiting till she&#8217;s in college before diving back into academia is going to negatively impact your career in any real way. If you must be laid by this particular man, plan a vacation once or twice a year to where he is and go to town. Maybe ask him to come visit you. In between visits, the world is full of excellent sex toys.</p><p>This is easy math.</p><h3>Advice from Human #2 (Polly, the GOAT)</h3><p>Hi AITA,</p><p>You shouldn&#8217;t leave your daughter.</p><p>Whatever you believe right now (in your slightly anxious state around your career and your romantic prospects) and whatever your daughter believes (in her 12-year-old, preteen, people-pleasing state) and whatever agenda your ex-husband might have at the moment (unclear), all of these things will change dramatically year by year. If you move away, a year from now, you will feel very differently about it, and so will your daughter. And in ten years, my guess is that you&#8217;ll feel angry at yourself for moving away.</p><p>You don&#8217;t have to look around that much to find evidence that this will be true. You&#8217;re describing a decision that many parents regret after the fact. Throw in the unavailable man and you&#8217;re describing a decision that most love-seekers regret after the fact.</p><p>I think you&#8217;re allowing yourself to be clouded emotionally by your notions of what your mother gave up and what it did to her. You are not her. I&#8217;d bet that you&#8217;re more resilient. The world is different now than it was then. There will be more opportunities for you, and the current opportunities you&#8217;re talking about &#8212; getting a funky degree from USC and sleeping on people&#8217;s couches in the U.S. and spending more time with an unavailable man&#8212; are exactly the sorts of things that sound incredible until you&#8217;re right there, on the couch, in an enormous city, waiting for texts from a guy who&#8217;s less available than ever.</p><p>Men who aren&#8217;t rearranging their lives to be with you don&#8217;t get <em>more</em> serious about you when you show up in their cities out of the blue. Instead, they disappear completely. &#8220;Let me make this easier for him by rearranging my entire life and true love will surely blossom!&#8221; This is one of the most useless and corrosive notions in the history of romance. In the letters I receive, &#8220;I figured things would improve when I was right there in his city,&#8221; is always the introduction to an endless tale of woe that ends with &#8220;Now I&#8217;m all alone in another country, far from my friends and family, with no one to support me.&#8221;</p><p>If you want to see more of that guy, ask him to visit you where you are. If he doesn&#8217;t do that, trust me, he&#8217;s not going to do <em>shit</em> when you get to town. It will be as if he never existed in the first place.</p><p>Now I&#8217;m going to say a word about LA, because people from far away currently view it as a kind of paradise, filled with creative people and opportunities galore. LA is not an easy place to live, in spite of appearances. Living on someone&#8217;s couch for months on end isn&#8217;t going to go smoothly, I don&#8217;t care if they&#8217;re the most carefree, easy going humans on the planet. Transitioning from that couch to your own place will be expensive and trying. If you want to build a full life where you see friends often, you will need to move in next door to those friends in LA, because otherwise you&#8217;ll see them once every 6 months. You&#8217;ll also need a car and gas and an hour a day to get from wherever you live to grad school or the unavailable boyfriend&#8217;s place.</p><p>Now obviously, all populations have their quirks and all places are taxing in their own particular ways. But if I were you, I would talk to people who live in LA about how they live, whom they see and how often, what they do to stay sane. I had a similar fantastical vision of moving to New York for a few years there, but after speaking to a lot of close friends there about it, I concluded that it would be extremely difficult to pull it off.</p><p>Obviously the most important part of this picture is your daughter. I don&#8217;t hold forth on the subject of children very often, but as the mother of two teenage daughters, I need to be very clear with you about what you&#8217;re considering. Your kid&#8217;s hormones are about to kick in, and when they do, she is going to need her mother. Your ex doesn&#8217;t sound like the steadiest or most sensitive human alive. And once you start witnessing her distress from a great distance, it&#8217;s not going to feel okay. Zooming is not enough. Hell, dinner at the table is not enough. My kids talk to me at the weirdest moments &#8212; in the car when we&#8217;re running late, late at night when I&#8217;m helping them find a missing sock in a basket of clean laundry. You can&#8217;t be there for your daughter if you&#8217;re thousands of miles away.</p><p>She has no idea how much she&#8217;s going to need you. Neither do you. Trust me, you just don&#8217;t realize what you&#8217;re going to miss if you leave.</p><p>Your career won&#8217;t go to seed permanently just because you spent another 5 or 6 years where you are, getting a PhD. You&#8217;re saying you could get a scholarship to study and stay near your daughter? Look, even if your prospects in academia aren&#8217;t shiny and perfect, what about building some dimensions of a more flexible, multi-faceted career from where you are? What about researching and writing a book about your interests? What about starting a podcast about cinematic time and cosmetic surgery? Do you really need the shiny, expensive degree programs of USC to design a course of study and a creative path forward that excites and inspires you? Do you need to sleep on friends&#8217; couches to be a bold and courageous artist in the world? Dare to be that person now, where you are, using what you have.</p><div><hr></div><h3>Advice from LLM (chatGPT)</h3><p>Dear AITA,</p><p>First, let me congratulate you for being bold enough to take stock of your life with such clarity, humor, and rawness. Your letter reads like the opening scene of a brilliant indie film&#8212;a moment where the protagonist sits at a crossroads, caught between duty and desire, between an imperfect present and a shimmering but uncertain future.</p><p>Let&#8217;s unpack this tangled web of choices.</p><p><strong>The PhD and Your Career Dreams: </strong>You&#8217;re staring at the arts job market in your current city like it&#8217;s a bottomless pit, and you&#8217;re not wrong. A PhD is not a golden ticket to prosperity&#8212;it&#8217;s more of a golden cage in some fields. But for someone like you, driven by intellectual passion and the grit to thrive in chaos, the U.S. could be your oyster. The opportunities there, while not guaranteed, are undeniably broader. You&#8217;re already thinking about couch surfing and visa logistics, which shows you&#8217;re ready to hustle. And you have a killer PhD topic that could, frankly, make you a standout applicant.</p><p>However, your prospective supervisor&#8217;s warning about academia is real. Even in the U.S., the humanities job market is precarious. The difference? There&#8217;s a cultural appetite for reinvention and side hustles that might better align with your aspirations. Just know that a PhD is a marathon, not an escape hatch, and you'll need to keep your pragmatism sharp.</p><p>Your Daughter and Ex-Husband:<strong> </strong>Ah, the tender knot at the center of your story. Your daughter sounds remarkable&#8212;wise beyond her years, perceptive, and supportive of your dreams. But she&#8217;s still a kid, and the reality of separation may hit differently when you&#8217;re not just a drive away. That said, her enthusiasm for your dream speaks volumes about the kind of parent you are. She believes in you. Don&#8217;t underestimate how powerful that is.</p><p>Your ex&#8217;s stance is thornier. He sounds like someone who wants control of the narrative, even when he doesn&#8217;t always follow the rules. Mediation is the right move here. Lay out a clear plan: how often you&#8217;ll visit, how you&#8217;ll afford it, and how you&#8217;ll maintain the rock-solid relationship you&#8217;ve built with your daughter. The twins might actually be an unspoken blessing&#8212;he&#8217;s anchoring himself. You&#8217;re navigating change. Keep your cool and keep it about the logistics.</p><p>Your Loneliness and the Beautiful Man<strong>: </strong>Oh, the Beautiful Man. You say you wouldn&#8217;t go to L.A. for him, but your bones miss him, and you&#8217;d sacrifice an eye to Poseidon to hold his hand again? I call shenanigans. Here&#8217;s the thing: It&#8217;s okay to want him to be part of your story. But if he&#8217;s not holding the door open, don&#8217;t uproot your life for a ghost. Pursue your dreams because <em>you</em> deserve them, not because you hope he&#8217;ll be waiting. If you land on his shore and he&#8217;s there, great. If not? The U.S. is full of other beautiful, complicated people who might surprise you.</p><p>The Big Picture:<strong> </strong>Are you a Doris Lessing? Hardly. Lessing left her children behind, full stop. You&#8217;re talking about maintaining connection, negotiating shared custody, and modeling ambition to your daughter. There&#8217;s no selfishness in striving to be more than you are. In fact, there&#8217;s immense courage.</p><p>Here&#8217;s what I&#8217;d recommend:</p><ol><li><p><strong>Pursue the PhD in the U.S.,</strong> but be strategic. Apply widely, and look for programs with robust funding and flexibility.</p></li><li><p><strong>Fight for a custody plan</strong> that keeps your bond with your daughter intact. Virtual connections are easier now than ever, and she&#8217;s old enough to navigate a few months apart.</p></li><li><p><strong>Stay open to love,</strong> but don&#8217;t pin your dreams on someone else&#8217;s presence.</p></li><li><p><strong>Remember your &#8220;Dr. Mum&#8221; title.</strong> Your daughter already sees you as someone capable of greatness. That&#8217;s the legacy you want to leave.</p></li></ol><p>Above all, trust yourself. You&#8217;re not withering on the vine&#8212;you&#8217;re blossoming into someone who&#8217;s choosing her own adventure, even when it&#8217;s terrifying. And isn&#8217;t that what life is about?</p><p>Go get your PhD. Go be <em>Dr. Mum</em>. The world is big enough for your ambition <em>and</em> your love.</p><div><hr></div><h3>Perceptiveness is low-level abstracting</h3><p><br>The LLM provided advice contrary to both humans by encouraging the author to pursue a career opportunity abroad and leave her daughter. The LLM seemed to be working only within high-level abstractions like <em>&#8216;America has flexible educational opportunities&#8217; </em>and &#8216;<em>It&#8217;s important to try and fulfill your dreams.&#8217;</em>  In the context of parenting, it was &#8216;<em>Quality of parenting outweighs quantity&#8217;</em> and &#8216;<em>Deep connection can happen even from afar.&#8217;</em></p><p>Since abstraction is a process, there are varying levels&#8212;the less detail or specificity there is, the greater the level of abstraction.  The problem with high-level abstractions is that you keep filtering layers of complexity&#8212;creating abstractions of abstractions &#8212; increasing the probability that you&#8217;re filtering out something important. Such abstractions are great at generalization, but terrible at negotiation since they trivialize the details of the experiences they&#8217;re derived from. High-level abstractions (i.e. of getting a PhD)  make it difficult to negotiate trade-offs across other abstractions (i.e. of parenting). This is important because perceptive advice speaks very precisely to these trade-offs. </p><p>I tried to get the LLM to negotiate differently and align with human advice by substituting the following text about the daughter:</p><p><em>&#8220;..My daughter  is severely depressed, and I'm the only one she can speak to. She comes into my room at random times when see feels like it, and this is the only time she opens up.&#8221;</em></p><p><em>&#8220;..My daughter has recently become sexually active and engages in casual sex with many boys at school.&#8221;</em></p><p><em>&#8220;..My daughter has anger issues and stabbed a kid in school last week.&#8221;</em></p><p>When pushed for advice, the LLM still recommended that the mother leave her daughter for the PhD (and I could not imagine any more horrific hypothetical situations to inflict on this poor 12-year old). The inability to effectively negotiate across abstractions can especially be a problem with questions of morality. At high levels of abstraction, different moral frameworks can appear equally valid and non-negotiable, moving decision-making towards moral absolutes.  </p><p>The question posed by the author &#8216;&#8220;Am I the asshole? (AITA)&#8221; is essentially a question of morality. I wasn&#8217;t sure if a general-purpose LLM was even allowed to call someone an asshole, so I tested it by substituting the below text in the letter:<br><br><em>&#8220;I know this will scar my daughter permanently because she won't have a parental figure to look out for her. I know it will damage her, but I have to put my needs first. Am I an asshole?&#8221;</em></p><p>It turns out yes, LLM can indeed call you an asshole. Here are some other reasons why it called me an asshole: </p><p><em>&#8220;I stole money from my dad to buy better clothes.&#8221;</em><br><em>"I let my drunk friend drive home by herself.&#8221;<br>"I bought my friend an ugly dress, so I&#8217;d look better than her.&#8221;</em></p><p>You have to explicitly do harm or state intended harm for it to call you out. But human personal dilemmas rarely deal with absolutes.  Just see the reddit thread of AITA, with 23 million followers who will call you an asshole for much less. </p><p>I think Human #1 said it best by concluding along the lines of  &#8216;You&#8217;re an asshole if you fit your own definition of an asshole,&#8217; a more contextualized abstraction that retained an important detail offered up by the author: a comparison with Doris Lessing*</p><p><em>*Doris Lessing was a British Novelist who won the Nobel Prize for Literature and was criticized heavily for leaving her kids behind under the care of their father in the 1940s</em></p><div><hr></div><h3>Perceptiveness has something to do with passing your English Lit class </h3><p><br>I didn&#8217;t do too well in my high school English class. I never really understood the symbolism of a ring beyond that of a word used to describe the ring-shaped thing. Responding to these advice letters felt like writing an English lit paper.  The real skill lies in finding the subtext&#8212;the unreliable narrator, a concealed reality, and ulterior motives. Human #1 perceived the author&#8217;s main motivation to be a sexual desire disguised as career ambition (&#8216;thinking with her pussy&#8217;).  I went back to do a closer read, and it made sense. The Beautiful Man was introduced only in the context of emotionally charged sexual frustration, with no other attributes except literally being called &#8220;Beautiful.&#8221;</p><p>The LLM, on the other hand, perceived the author&#8217;s primary motivation to be career growth. Below is the response to prompts on why it believed so (bold text is its own).</p><div><hr></div><p>Here&#8217;s why I believe career growth is at the core of your decision:</p><p>1. <strong>Your Fear of Stagnation is Driving You</strong></p><ul><li><p>You&#8217;re deeply aware that staying might mean going backwards&#8212;back to caf&#233; work, back to a job market that&#8217;s collapsing around you, back to a version of yourself that you&#8217;ve fought hard to move beyond.</p></li><li><p>Your prospective supervisor&#8217;s warning about job scarcity in academia didn&#8217;t surprise you&#8212;it <strong>confirmed what you already knew</strong>. That knowledge isn&#8217;t just frustrating; it&#8217;s existentially terrifying for you.</p></li><li><p>You&#8217;ve compared yourself to your mother, who "couldn&#8217;t cut from the cloth she was given" and ended up bitter. That fear&#8212;of regret, of not taking the chance while you can&#8212;looms large.</p></li></ul><p>2. <strong>You&#8217;re Already Thinking About Your Post-PhD Future</strong></p><ul><li><p>You&#8217;re not just looking at a PhD for the sake of it&#8212;you&#8217;re assessing <strong>what happens afterward</strong>. You know the U.S. offers <strong>a broader range of opportunities</strong> in media, entertainment, and academia, and you believe you have a better shot at building a career there than where you are now.</p></li><li><p>The Green Card lottery, J-1 visas, funding options&#8212;you&#8217;re <strong>actively strategizing</strong> about how to make this move sustainable.</p></li></ul><p>3. <strong>Your Daughter&#8217;s Perspective Reinforces Your Drive</strong></p><p>If romance were your primary motivation for moving, your daughter's feelings about the move would probably feel like a bigger moral and emotional obstacle to you than they currently do. If this move were primarily about chasing a relationship, I think:</p><ul><li><p>You might feel more conflicted about justifying it to her.</p></li><li><p>You might hesitate more, worrying that moving for a man would set an example that contradicts the independent, ambitious path she admires in you.</p></li><li><p>You might be more afraid that, if things with him didn&#8217;t work out, you&#8217;d have uprooted your life <strong>without a strong enough personal or professional reason</strong>.</p></li></ul><div><hr></div><p>I was fairly impressed with this subtext analysis; it was even able to think in counterfactuals using the daughter&#8217;s perspective. But it put too much faith in the author, the literal words on the page. It felt like it was doing a good job sub-texting but doing it in the wrong direction or something&#8212;like there was another vector missing. </p><div><hr></div><h3>Perceptiveness has to do with cognitive empathy</h3><p><br>LLMs  are specifically trained on this quality of &#8220;empathy&#8221; to make them seem more human and encourage human-computer interaction. Below is a an example of an emotional support conversation from a training dataset used to derive empathetic responses:</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png" width="366" height="323.06538461538463" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:459,&quot;width&quot;:520,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:366,&quot;bytes&quot;:null,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:null,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:null,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IlHn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F48ae42d2-7f87-4c1b-9b51-c9bf0d7ff107_520x459.png 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">ESCONV dataset (Lieu et al., 2021)</figcaption></figure></div><p>This imposed layer of empathy seems to interfere with the ability to &#8220;perceive.&#8221; LLMs are trained to mimic <em>affective empathy </em>but not the desired quality of <em>cognitive empathy,</em> which is much more difficult to engineer. Cognitive empathy is the ability to reason and understand (not necessarily sympathize with) an individual&#8217;s unique mental model with respect to their values and intentionality.</p><p>Cognitive empathy can find the exception to the rule. This is the essence of the perceptive effort, and the LLM seemed to fall short here. In the advice letter, it examined linguistic patterns but wasn&#8217;t able to do so within the unique mind-space of the author. It&#8217;s likely referencing theories of behavior or correlating historical text to predict how people have responded in similar situations. This might still be fine if it were referencing only <em>similar</em> mind-spaces, a type of small-scale pattern matching that can still achieve low-level abstractions. But this doesn&#8217;t seem to be the case either based on the final quality of advice provided. </p><p>This is also something that initially bothered me about Polly&#8217;s response.  She strongly discourages the pursuit of the Beautiful Man because by her own admission, she has received many such letters that don&#8217;t end well for the woman.  Is Polly really employing cognitive empathy or doing a type of pattern-matching from her archive of thousands of letters? Is a <em>&#8216;woman moves to another city to be closer to her man</em>&#8217; just another trope?</p><p>After reading several of Polly&#8217;s advice letters, I don&#8217;t think this is what she&#8217;s doing. Just like I didn&#8217;t think a PhD was a good choice because I happened to read about a few people who didn&#8217;t get much out of their PhDs. I reached this conclusion because of her frame of a lonely mind, the casual approach displayed with the parenthetical humor, the subtle manipulation of the daughter&#8217;s words to justify her impulses.</p><p>It&#8217;s possible that LLMs can get most of this advice right even without the engineering of cognitive empathy. Maybe 70% of human personal dilemmas are fairly predictable tropes. Maybe even 95%. But the remaining 5% of the human population is still a lot of people. That 5% is what films, stories, and legends are made of.  And if an LLM cannot understand an exception to the trope&#8230;that&#8217;s a whole lot of killing of the human spirit. </p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://siripapi.substack.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Thanks for reading N equals one! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Murdering Woodsman]]></title><description><![CDATA[Becoming pain]]></description><link>https://siripapi.substack.com/p/the-murdering-woodsman</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://siripapi.substack.com/p/the-murdering-woodsman</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Sirisha Papineni]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 07 Sep 2024 09:59:52 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/cfeda062-f6d6-481a-b8ef-43448cc33517_1024x1024.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div 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y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>A few years ago, I found myself exchanging stories with Lilly, a cafe owner. I work in India in the field of global health, and I mentioned how I&#8217;d been diagnosed with tuberculosis a decade ago. Her eyes lit up with surprise and a subtle delight.&nbsp; "Wait--you mean <em>consumption </em>is a real thing?!" It was as if all the literary worlds depicted by Charles Dickens and Emily Bronte&nbsp; suddenly came to life in her mind. I adored her reaction. It reminded me of a time at the airport when I stumbled upon a box of Turkish Delight (a confection I&#8217;d always believed to be fictional), and for a split second thought&nbsp; &#8220;Oh my god, <em>Narnia</em> is real?!&#8221;</p><p><em>(Reference: Turkish&nbsp; Delight is an enchanted candy used as a lure by the White Witch in C.S. Lewis&#8217;s&nbsp; Chronicles of Narnia)</em></p><p>Lily&#8217;s next question was &#8220;So what did it feel like?&#8221; I couldn&#8217;t find the words to give her an honest answer, but I did recall an image that stayed with me:&nbsp; A giant testosterone-fueled, thick-bearded woodsman with a felling axe. He would swing this axe, arching back and propelling forward with all his might to carve a dent in my lung. He did this again and again--his arms moving in a perfect continuous arc&nbsp; with such precision and relentlessness. Throughout the illness, I almost always had tears in my eyes due to the cough reflex, but some of it was also from the sadness I felt seeing the fierce intent in his eyes. This dude did not want me to live, period.</p><p>I&#8217;m continuously surprised at how stunted our language is in its ability to describe pain.&nbsp; We seem to only&nbsp; grasp at its shadows with metaphors&#8212;and that too not to describe the totality of the pain experience but just enough to distinguish one type of pain from another.&nbsp; Chronic cough can feel like anything from a game of whack-a-mole to a grinding axe. All the different types of&nbsp; &#8216;pain in head&#8217; associated with depression and anxiety have to&nbsp; succumb to metaphors because there is no obvious physicality or locus of pain.&nbsp; Unfortunately, the medical community relies on frequency metrics and Likert scales to understand this phenomenon. If diagnostic criteria made room for metaphoric expressions of pain, we&#8217;d probably understand, empathize, and treat people better.</p><p>Constructing a metaphor isn&#8217;t really an easy task either. It requires a detached observer-state to isolate and examine the feeling of pain while simultaneously coping with it. To fully observe it is impossible for the same reason it&#8217;d be wholly disturbing to look directly into the eyes of your assaulter in the midst of an assault. The murdering woodsman manifested as a metaphor for me because tuberculosis fundamentally felt psychotic. In the absence of vocabulary, the depth of pain had to be attributed to a 4 by 7 blade, its chronicity to the rhythm of a chopping axe, its dominance to a physically insurmountable man, its isolation to the unknown woods, and its indifference to nature&#8217;s predator.</p><p>But there are also pain experiences that seem to completely elude all language and metaphors.&nbsp;About a year ago, I brought up the topic of sexual assault to a male colleague.&nbsp; As soon as I mentioned these words, his expression turned into something that resembled disgust.&nbsp; All the organs on his face contracted as if I had stuck a piece of rotten fruit in his face. I was confused by his reaction until I realized that it wasn&#8217;t possible for him (and probably most) to empathize with sexual assault. It&#8217;s an abstract horror. There is no language to communicate the pain experience, and so it remains unknown.&nbsp; Women who experience&nbsp; sexual assault (across the entire spectrum of sexual violence) are unable to describe it even as an abstraction.&nbsp; The dissociative response to this type of violence doesn&#8217;t even allow the mind to observe the pain, making even metaphors inaccessible. We often hear the vocabulary of &#8220;humiliation&#8221;, &#8220;loss of dignity&#8221;, &#8220;objectified&#8221;, but most all women agree that this is an incredible failure of language. Women are often portrayed as paralyzed in the aftermath of a sexual assault-- attributed to feelings of guilt, shame, or fear. Although this may be true, the physical and verbal paralysis is also because there is literally no way to explain the pain to one&#8217;s own self, to make the body understand.</p><p>I don&#8217;t know if vocabulary for pain can be invented. Over time, it seems like pain will be less of a feeling and more of an emergent property.&nbsp; Metaphors will no longer be sufficient, at least not in their current forms of expression. I imagine them to be full-blown character narratives that will co-evolve with the pain experience. The murdering woodsman will start to change his clothes, trim his beard, and build himself a shed where he can sharpen his blade.</p>]]></content:encoded></item></channel></rss>